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Trying to Find My Moment of Zen

Trying to Find My Moment of Zen

Come on. We can all admit it. Life is crazy lately.

It's politics (and I won't get into a political discussion), a general air of negativity, over-committing myself to projects, not getting enough sleep, health concerns, family moving away (although it's all good, it's still change), hurricanes, adopting another cat, aging, realizing I'm never going to be a rock star, and on and on and on.

Sometimes I struggle to find my balance. Don't you feel the same way?

So what do you do about it? How do you stop the madness and get some calm?

Well my first thought was to move to an island and disconnect from the world. But since a) I'm not independently wealthy; b) I'm too social to live by myself and; c) there would be no one with me to kill the bugs, I've been searching for places to find my own moments of Zen. 

I started practicing yoga last year. I have a fab yoga instructor who helps me understand my body and how I adapt into yoga positions and work at my own inner pace.

I have learned to say no more often. I'm still a people pleaser and try to help everyone but sometimes I just can't. It hurts me to try to help them and that doesn't help anyone (well except maybe them at the time but you get my drift).

I've gotten into a healthy food plan with my wonderful doc friend and have a great friend/accountability partner. 

I adopted another cat. Yes, I listed that as a stress item but at the same time, knowing we saved this wonderful little loving soul gives me peace. 

I've shut up (most of the time) on some ideas that Roland has that I just don't get and go with the flow. The perfect example is the deck he wanted in front of the Farm Market. I just couldn't see how it would fit and justify the expense. Man was I wrong (please don't tell Roland I said that). He was so right. What a fab idea - and I love sitting out there enjoying my coffee, listening to the birds and just getting Zen with it. 

So what's my point with this? I think it's just to let go, step away and sometimes just say f%#! it. I need some time and space. Even if it's only a few minutes. My life is so damn good it's about time I enjoy it more and stress less. 

Well at least for a few minutes at a time. 



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